Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Love Letter to JESUS


Lord, I love You so very much... Your mercy and love for me - and for mankind - is amazing... Your heart is so deep and full of goodness and mercy -- the things You've given us are filled with Your glory... The mountains, the sea -- the sunsets and sunrises -- the thunderstorms and the rainbows -- music and laughter -- animals to love and care for -- our mates and our children -- family and friends... Best of all, Lord - You have saved me from an eternity without You. Just my existance is a miracle. You chose me to be born! Is it any wonder why I love You? You chased me until I caught You...

Thank You, Lord - for Your love, for Your salvation, for my life...

Daughter - come sit here on My lap and let Me hold you close... you are My treasure and the apple of My eye... My heart lept for joy when you found Me and answered My call... As you dig deeper into My Word and seek a richer relationship with Me, it blesses My heart and fills Me with love... Do not keep yourself closed off from Me, Child - all I have is yours - ever so much more than you can imagine. I want to give you everything - but you need to be open enough to receive it...

Psalm 121


I will lift up my eyes to the mountains;
from whence shall my help come?
My help comes from the LORD,
Who made Heaven and earth.
He will not allow your foot to slip;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD is your keeper;
The LORD is your shade on your right hand.
The sun will not smite you by day,
nor the moon by night.
The LORD will protect you from all evil;
He will keep your soul.
The LORD will guard your going out
and your coming in
from this time forth and forever.

Psalm 121 NASB



May your day be blessed and the Joy of the LORD fill your heart with gladness!

LiC - kim

Monday, April 17, 2006

Rivers of Living Water


At church yesterday, someone had a word from the Lord in relation to the stone that was rolled away from Christ's tomb: Just as the Light and Power was released from the tomb upon the removal of the stone, so must we roll away the stone that covers our heart and release the Light and Power of the Holy Spirit to come forth. Shortly after hearing this, the Lord gave me an impression.

I see a small bubbling brook, water flowing down over the rocks and boulders. The water is clean and clear and sweet - my viewpoint is that of a mouse -- eye level with the ground, almost. I look up and the tall, tall pines, towering above me -- mighty and strong and pointing to His glory. As I observe the brook, I hear the Spirit say, "Let My Living Water roll those stones away... the boulders that cover your heart as Marita spoke of will be washed away by the Water... there will be a loosening - there will be a trembling, as the rock becomes dislogded from its anchor... the smaller stones will move away easily, but the larger ones will only be moved by a rushing river... Free yourself up, Child - don't let the old man, the old habits, become the sludge that prevents the stones from moving... let the force of My Living Water dislodge, wash over and roll it away..."

On that last day, that great day of the feast, JESUS stood and cried out, saying, "If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his innermost being will flow rivers of Living Water." ...this He spoke concerning the Spirit, whom those believeing in Him would receive..." John 7:37-39a

LiC ~ kim

Thursday, April 13, 2006

All I Need is YOU...


During worship, the song, "All I Need is You" was being sung -- prior to this refrain, my thoughts were fixed on Heaven and life in Eternity... My imagination was wandering around, contemplating the photo opps I might have at that time... This thought led me to scrapbooking... Then, the friends I will reunite with and the new friends I'd make...

"All I need is You, Lord..." penetrated my thoughts and in my heart, a Voice quietly asked, "If all Heaven contained was ME - nothing and no one else - would you still be joyful and content? Will the things and the people and activities be the center of your focus...or will it be ME? Remember where your joy and contement come from, Child... Not from things, nor from others... But from GOD alone. Learn this now, Child, and eternity will be greater than you can possibly imagine... I love you."

Worship service - Sunday, April 9, 2006

REJOICE


Rejoice, rejoice and again I say, rejoice... The heavens are bright with the radience of the King and His love for you... And all of Heaven itself is in eager anticipation for the marriage supper of the Lamb... The waiting is nearly over - do not walk in discouragement and despair, but in joy and hope... See the glory that comes down from above and reach out to Me...

God's word spoken to me during worship - Sunday, March 5, 2006

GLORY


And I see and hear the word, "Glory" -- Glory, glory, glory... Rejoice, My children, for the time is near... The Bridegroom will soon be on His way - even now, He is beginning His journey to come unto to you and be united with His bride... Be ye joyful, therefore, and redeem the time... As a bride makes her final alterations and puts on her finishing touches, so must you make your final preparations - prepare to welcome your King, for the time is near... Lift your face to the Son and be washed in His brightness - fill your heart with joy and hope... Your Bridegroom, the King, will not wait one minute longer than is necessary, so do not tarry in your preparations...

God's spoken word to me during worhsip -- Sunday, March 5, 2006

Song of Solomon


This is the front of a wedding card I made last weekend. The photo was taken in Prince William Sound during a day cruise out of Whittier, Alaska in May 2005. Text reads:

Many waters cannot quench love, nor can the floods drown it. Song of Songs 8:7a

The Time Machine


Twice this week I have taken a short jaunt in the time machine...

On Monday, I was in Anchorage, driving west on Northern Lights Blvd on the way to my Dad's place. Three or four car lengths in front of me, a young couple quickly crossed the road. I looked their way as I passed by and realized they were perhaps 14 or 15 years old. Right at that moment, the time machine raced me back in time to 1973. I was walking home from high school - alone and with others - right at that very spot on Northern Lights Blvd. The west side of Anchorage - Spenard, Turnagain, Earthquake Park - is where I grew up and where my father still resides. Instantly, my mind was filled with images - memories - of the music, the kids, the teachers, my family. There was no post office there 23 years ago. Carrs Aurora Villiage was there, but what used to be the Pay 'n Pak hardware store is now a gym. An empty lot, surrounded by a chain-link fence that appears to be protecting gravel, weeds and litter, is all that remains of the local Dairy Queen, which was one of our many after-school hangouts. Shakey's Pizza Parlor is now a barber shop. Some things have changed, but others are still the same. I could see that young couple - holding hands and talking about the important things in their world...but my friends, Gretchen, John, Bin and Pat were only fond images in my mind. I gave a sigh - and the time machine brought me back to April 10, 2006, and I continued on my way to Dad's.

Then tonight, as I was in the kitchen cooking Rog's dinner, I popped in a CD that my oldest son Chris had given to me for Christmas. It was a compilation of songs from the 1980s that he had burned himself. Oh. My. Gosh. I was bopping along to Tears for Fears and Madonna and Cyndi Lauper...

if you're lost you can look--and you will find me time after time
if you fall I will catch you--I'll be waiting time after time...

This time, that faithful old time machine whisked me to Glen Caren Trailer Court, space #240. We lived there for six years - from June 1981 to June 1987. My three youngest children were born while we lived in that trailer. As I moved to the music in my Eagle River kitchen, in my mind's eye I could see the kids playing in the livingroom... I could see the old Atari game system - Pac Man, Pitfall, Donkey Kong... I could see Chris and Jamie playing with their He Man toys and Jenny with her Cabbage Patch doll and little Matthew, racing around in his walker... Overwhelming love for my kids flowed through me - and the bitter taste of sadness and disappointment in my marriage. The mixture of joy and hopelessness wrapped itself around me while I continued to stir-fry the vegetables. Then I sighed. Roggie's dinner was done and the time machine dropped me off right back in my kitchen.

I think I am a little more sensitive to the lure of the time machine right now because tomorrow - April 13 - my first-born baby turns 30. YIKES!! How can I have a child that old when, inside my brain, I'm still 25?? I like these short trips in the time machine. Sometimes I wish they'd last a little longer, but one lesson I've been hearing over and over lately is, "The Past is a nice place to visit - but you wouldn't want to live there." As much as I enjoy visiting, I want to keep moving forward, steadily and surely. I want to enter in to all that GOD has for me. As great as parts of my past were - they can't begin to compare to is up ahead!
LiC ~

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Lay Me Down in Peace...


This is a photo taken by my sister-in-law, Linda, who lives in Montana. She took several photos of a herd of wild mule deer and I chose this one to "play" with. Text reads: I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for Thou, Lord, only makest me dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8, KJV TFL!

LiC ~

Saturday, April 01, 2006

A Forgotten Memory...

Came across this e-mail post that I wrote about 18 months ago. I'd forgotten all about it, but after re-reading it, realized that it was meant to be shared...

Oh my gosh...I just spent the last hour or two just communing with the Lord - what an absolute blessing! My heart is full and my spirit is so relaxed and at peace... Stefra was (is) downstairs, but I was alone upstairs for about half the time...I had put on my new WOW cd I bought today and "my song" - Amazing Grace by Todd Agnew - came on...of course, I had to dance to it ... The only lights on were the sink light in the kitchen and the desk lamp - I lit a candle on the coffee table and put on "Ride the Wind" by Jonathan Meracle -- and after dancing to 2 of his songs, I put on "Soaking" by Todd Bentley and laid down on the couch -- I don't recall how far into the cd I was - maybe in the 2nd track? - when I felt weight of the Holy Spirit - finally ... Rog came home about then and I knew for sure the Spirit was upon me, because I couldn't move for anything -- and the assorted noises Rog was making at the desk didn't distract me, even though I could plainly hear them. And here's a "GOD-thing" - although the volume of the stereo was up rather high, Rog didn't ask me to turn it down...and...even though he was watching tv at the desk, he kept his volume down low...he didn't ask what I was doing or how long I was going to be or say anything negative! It was so God and such a blessing...he let me lie there on the couch, soaking up the Holy Spirit...Thank You Lord, for my precious and beloved Husband.

Okay - so here are some things I experienced during my soaking time... During one of the tracks, I was flying with the Lord over the earth. Todd Bentley was speaking about hiding under the shadow of His wings (seeking protection), but here I was - grinning and giggling at times -- I guess you could say I felt giddy ! -- and I was flying under His wing (His right wing) - soaring over mountains and deserts and rivers...the music is what made me take flight -- and I was filled with an incredible joy and wonder...I could feel my body weighted down on the couch, but inside I felt light and free -- exhilarated.. Another time, I was dancing before the throne - at first, I saw myself in my glorified body (slender and graceful) - but then I saw myself as I really am - 300 lbs and big and clunky -- awkward -- this picture (and the words) ran through my mind and I felt the Lord saying, "See yourself as I see you...not big and awkward, but full of beauty - full of My Spirit. You are beautiful and graceful and My heart is full of love and joy when you dance for Me..." Wow...wow.

During another track, Todd Bentley was speaking about unveiling and looking in a mirror -- being changed from glory to glory -- and I saw it happening -- the room or area was vast and bathed in golden light - there was a filmy veil over a mirror - the veil was pulled off and I saw myself ...but I was looking at Jesus...at first, it seemed as though Jesus looked identical to me - but then the vision changed and I realized that I was looking into a mirror, but it was His face looking back at me -- His image was reflected in the mirror when I looked at it because He is in me - and it is His character that is visible. Wow, again.

Sonna said something at prayer today that describes how I'm feeling right now -- totally relaxed -- like after getting out of a shower or a hot tub...my body is relaxed and my mind and spirit are relaxed as well - not in a limp and exhausted way, but in a peaceful, refreshed way. Thanks Lord - I needed that ! Seriously, Father -- I really needed that special time with You and I'm thankful we had that time together. I love You so much - In the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ I pray - Amen.

**Side note to Cheryl - remember when you told me that it was okay to cry; for me not to bottle up my feelings? After I wrote the journal entry in my notebook, I picked up the "His Princess" book and asked Him to speak to me. I opened the book at random (in a section I hadn't even read yet) and the passage was, "It's Okay to Cry." The accompanying scripture verse was Psalm 126:3 - Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. Pretty cool, huh ?!


LiC ~

Christian version of the "Get to Know Me" Game

*How long have you been a Christian? I have believed in Him since I was a child, but invited Him into my heart and was baptized in water and in the Holy Spirit nearly 22 years ago (April 19, 1984)

*What's your preference...hymns or modern worship music? There are certain hymns that I adore (How Great Thou Art, Amazing Grace, etc), but as a steady diet, the current praise & worship and contemporary Christian music is what I prefer best.

*Favorite Christian artists? Many of them: Newsboys. Chris Tomlin, Jeremy Camp, Matthew West, Mercy Me, Third Day, Casting Crowns, Todd Agnew, Nichole Nordeman, Natalie Grant...so many others.

*List your top 5 favorite songs. How Great is Our GOD (Chris Tomlin); Grace Like Rain (Todd Agnew); More (Matthew West); I Can Only Imagine (Mercy Me); It Is You (Newsboys)

*What's the hardest lesson God has taught you? Apart from Him, I am nothing (I'm actually very thankful about that, but there are times when I *forget* and try to handle life my own way...)

*Who has been your greatest Christian mentor? My Gramma Mary; my Sisters-in-Christ

*List a quality of your mentor that you'd most like to emulate... Well, Christ-like characteristics, of course -- peace, patience, kindness, unconditional love, humility, graciousness; a meek & quiet spirit; diligence in intercessory prayer

*Favorite Christian authors? Fiction: Angela Hunt, Lori Wick, Francine Rivers, Janette Oke, Frank Peretti, Randy Alcorn, many others. Non-fiction: James Dobson, Gary Smalley, Chuck Pierce, Patricia King, Brad Jursak, Wesley & Stacy Campbell, Stormie Omartian, many others.

*Favorite Christian books? Other than the Bible (KJV or NKJV), there are too many to list

*Favorite Christian speaker/pastor? Pastor: Tim Maus (our pastor); Speakers: Patricia King, Wesley Campbell, James McDonald, Brad Jursak, Jeff Burke

*How many times a week do you attend church? 1

*What roles do you fill at your local church? I am co-host of a community-wide scrapbook/stamp ministry that meets at our church twice a month.

*Favorite scriptures? Jer 29:11-13; 32:27; Heb 11:1; James 5:20, Isaiah 61; most of the Psalms & Proverbs, many others

*Favorite daily devotional? Not using one at the moment...

*What do you think you'll say to Jesus the first time you see Him in heaven? I'll be too choked up to say anything at first... get teary-eyed even now, just thinking about it...

*If you could meet someone from the bible (besides Christ, God, and the Holy Spirit), who would you pick and why? Is it really possible to choose one person?! Thankfully, we'll have an eternity to meet everyone - topping my list, I think, would be Mary, the mother Christ and Eve. Mary, because I would love to know what she thought and how she felt, raising the Messiah - she could fill in those "missing years" between the ages of 12 and 30. I'd also ask her if she realized, while watching her precious baby boy hanging there on that cross, that He would soon be resurrected and then ascend to the Father. How did GOD speak to her during those times? Eve, because I would like to know what it was like to be the first woman in existance. What was her relationship with the Father like? What was it like to be married and never have an arguement? I'd also like to know her thoughts after the fall and their banishment from Eden - did she and Adam ever blame one another for their consequences? Did they still have communication with GOD? What was it like to be pregnant for the first time and not have another woman to talk things over with? Did she understand what was happening to her body when the baby was growing inside her?

*In five words, describe what you think heaven will be like... Colorful, Exciting, Glorious, Enlightening -- HOME

*When you get to heaven, which former humans do you want to see first? My Mom, my Gramma Mary & my grandbabies... and my Dad, if he passes on before I do

*What do you think are the biggest challenges facing the church today? Hardened hearts, spiritual apathy, spiritual ignorance (I'm speaking of professing Believers, not the unsaved...)

*What is your biggest challenge or temptation? Dying to self. IE: procrastination; unimportant busy-ness, selfishness

*What would you say God is calling you to do within the body? I know I have the gift of encouragement and I try to use this whenever possible. I'm also pretty certain I have been called to intercession, but I am not very diligent in my prayer life. I would love to have a weekly Bible study or small home group in our home.

*Best piece of Christian advice you've heard latley? That He is Good and the Coolest**

*Prayer request today? That my Husband, our children and I will walk in the direction He leads us in; that we daily choose to remain in His will.

LiC ~

**my son Matthew typed in the response to "Best piece of Christian advice..." - I am blessed by his answer!

How GOD Speaks (to me...)

Currently, we are down to one vehicle (not counting the work trucks) because my Blazer has issues. Consequently, whenever I need to run an errand or head into town to visit w/my Dad, I must wait until there is an available vehicle for me to use. I will get to use either Rog's truck or our son J's truck - this is usually not a problem, for which I am thankful. But, on those occasions when I am unable to use either one, I sometimes get frustrated.

My Dad, bless his heart, has been wanting to buy a new vehicle for himself -- but since he hasn't driven for well over a year, he would allow me to use it in his stead. Very sweet. A few times recently, he has found SUVs for sale on-line or advertised in local commercials and has asked Rog if he thinks they are worth the value. My precious Husband - keeping Dad's best interests in mind - tells him that although these *deals* sound very good, most likely they are not. When Dad explains that he's wanting to find a vehicle for me to use, Rog says that we will be getting the Blazer fixed eventually and that Dad shouldn't be spending his $$ unnecessarily. "Eventually" is a relative term. We do know someone who is willing to come fix my car, but he hasn't had the time to do so in the month or more since it's been disabled. And he has no idea when, exactly, he will have the time -- but he is willing.

So...spoiled child that I am, I have been feeling resentful that Rog has not encouraged Dad to purchase a new vehicle. Today - and here I am finally getting around to the reason for my title - I asked GOD what logical reason does Rog have for his decision? Is it a form of control (I don't believe it is)? Is it male pride ("If anyone is going to provide for my wife, it'll be ME")? I don't think that's it, either. So, as I pondered and waited on His answer, I was gently reminded by the Holy Spirit about the "Leave & Cleave" message we learned at the WTR conference last weekend -- we are commanded to leave mother and father and to cleave to one another in our marriage (and also to become one flesh, but that isn't the issue here). It was explained to us that "leaving and cleaving" means, essentially, to break all bonds of dependence upon our parents and cling to or be inter-dependent upon, our mate. Given that, I understood that GOD was telling me that I am no longer to rely on my Dad to meet my needs (transportation), but that it is my Husband's responsibility to do so. It was one of those "Ah-ha!" moments. Looking at the issue with godly understanding, I am not so frustrated and resentful as I was.

That's how He often speaks to me - with that gentle, quiet voice bringing up lessons I've learned or messages I've heard or truths I've read. It amazes me every time, when I hear Him communicating with me, Spirit-to-spirit. It shouldn't, really, but it does. To think that the Creator of the entire universe cares enough about me, that He would take the time to whisper in my ear His instructions and reminders and exhortations and correction. It's one of the things I love best about Him - this genuine interest in what is best for me and His willingness to speak to me about it. He speaks words of love to me as well - especially when I'm feeling unimportant or unnecessary. I still need to work on hearing His voice whenever He speaks - sometimes I'm too busy or too involved with *self* to take notice. But when I do hear Him and the glorious things He has to say to me... what a joyful, blessed and secure thing it is!

LiC ~